Pain runs through the veins
Just wondering what remains
Vitamins and training for tommorow
Future is scary with no time to borrow

Tears are running down my face
My heart is hurting and having a hard time keeping pace
Fatigue that plagues the soul
Hard to tame the symptoms from going out of control

Cannot say what is truely wrong
Must silently march on and remain strong
Feel like hiding, silence is what can stay
At any moment the mask might slip away

Sick and never will recover
Is their anything to discover
People stress me greatly, making me feel insane
The stabing of the many knives coming like drops of rain

Who can I trust today?
Just wishing for it all to go away
Noise is hurtful just like the heat
The condition only delivers a timely defeat

Tiny voices tell me there is more suffering to come
In many ways I still hurt, even if I drink alcohol until im numb
Nervous and filled with fears all the time
Past that haunts me like so, yet I did no crime

Crowds of thunder
Make me often wonder
What is it that I miss?
Concerts, amusement parks and parties fade to the abyss

The heart cannot take it
Even If I try to make it
Body and the mind have taken a toll
Living for tommorow is the only goal

Taking those pills
Symptoms are gone for a while, but only time it kills
Why on earth should I stay?
Almost sunlight then turns to dark and gray

Who can help me?
When I help soo many to a degree
No one answers the call
So only in time the body crashes and takes the fall

Delay is the name of the game
With no glory or shame
Muscles still remain
With no one near hope is hard to contain

The nervous system slowly fades away
From the hell that will stay
This is as close as speaking I will get
In the voice there is only regret

Words are louder , hthey make a greater sound
Confusion and soon sleep bound
1 more hour then a few more
For todays final score

Drama fills most of the day
As hopes and dreams only fade away
The battle must and just continues on
Even when the chance of victory is basically gone