Issues

I am numb as could be
No one can sense it or see
The pain and emotional agony in me
A time of the year that hurts to the third degree

Cannot close my eyes
The suffering never dies
Just another blank sunrise
Living under a disguise

Last Thanksgiving was rough
Mentally draining and tough
A lost love and other stuff
Is what I do ever enough?

I wonder why so many often smile
While I'm missing everything by a mile
Submerged under a gigantic pile
Of everything gone that was worthwhile

There is no going back in time
Only to treat the aftermath like a crime
Eventually there will be tears
From the damage over the years

Alone to battle what is on the inside
Many memories and things that reside
Overwhelmed with grief, like a tsunami wave
Crashing in my mind flooding my cave

Everything is so complicated
Life seems so jaded
How we feel is so understated
The sequence of so often being devastated