Quitting Again

It’s here with me when I sleep
It’s here with me when I speak
I wonder if it will ever let me be
Or if it will nosily make a peep
Just one more time cries my soul
To leave it alone is my one true goal
Blood rushes to my head as I plunge
And my body soaks it up like a sponge
Just one more time cries my foe
Just one more time as I fall below
Quitting is harder than trying to fail
I wish for a beach a boat to set sail
But my dereliction never comes to fruition
It’s taken my life’s prominent position
Let me breathe and let it heed my cry
As I seethe, I hope to quit or die
It’s with me when other’s are not there
It comforts me when other’s words are bare
I can’t see it, but it sees me well enough to know
It’s in my forecast for today and many tomorrows