Disappointment

Stuck in the aftermath
Of my mistakes,
Another life,
Gone to waste,
Will I ever wake up?
Disappointment,
I know that's the
Feeling you get
When you look me
In the eyes
Just another expectation
Left hanging
A memory surviving
By a thread of
Hope,
Should it drop,
Would I shatter?
I've sworn up and
Down, I'd never
Stop, always move
Forward, no matter
The Price,
Yet here I am,
Tangled up
In my promises,
I'll never be able
To keep,
Suspended in air,
I'll always just be
A Martyr, for my
Hopes and dreams
I'm barely moving,
The wounds,
They're still bleeding,
In what's been
What may not be,
I find meaning,
I'm holding on
To that false hope,
Disappointment,
That's all I'll ever
Be, maybe it's  best,
If I just,
Fade away, a distant
Glint on the
Darkening Horizon,
No blaze of glory
For me,
Your words are
My mantra,
Everything Will Be
Okay,
I've forgotten my
Way home,
So deeply entangled
My soul, it's healing
Forward, I will go
Another day,
Laid to waste,
What will I do
With this acidic
Aftertaste?
My hopes and dreams,
Left behind,
All to force past
The fact that I
Was and always
Will be a
Disappointment,
The wounds, have scarred
Over, an ugly reminder
Of my inability to
Escape the Hanging
Expectations above my
Head,
If it fell,
Would I shatter,
Along with it?
~Kaitlin Platti~