Mash
Mash
I never intended to be everything I hate.
So I can’t keep out the cold for very much longer.
My faith and hope in myself dwindled as my
Distaste for my ways grew stronger.
I’m sorry, I feel as if I can’t do anything right.
I’m the one falling apart because of my own pain.
I picked myself apart again….
I, by myself, am my only punisher.
Against most wishes of those around me,
I destroy myself again…and again.
It’s been so long since I’ve felt this bad.
I care, but I can’t bring myself to stop.
The trust I’ve been gaining for so long,
Falls to pieces again, I’m truly sorry.
So feel free to take a hit,
A chip off the old block.
You seem to learn more about me…
With every turn.
My world is spinning out of control,
Who knows what I’ll do tomorrow,
If I stay long enough to see it?
I can feel the breakdown,
Such a waste, I know…
The look on your face,
I’ve disappointed you yet again.
Tell me, how much harder do I have to
Try?
This must mean I’ve finally reached it.
The end is calling, my deaf ears can’t help
But pick it up.
Will I keep true to this deathly path?
Or will I end it before it can truly begin?
~Kaitlin Platti~
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