Night Terrors

Darkness comes yet I'm wide awake
The time, the hour,
Matters not, not even for my own sake
Not a hot bath, nor a warm shower

I beg and I plead
Dear Goddess, it's sleep I need
Night turns to dawn
I toss and turn
Yet not so much as even a yawn

After so many days and nights of this
Sooner or later
After losing my mind
I finally shut down
I go to the abyss

Just like Alice I fall into a hole
It's not a nice place
It wants my very soul
Too late now, even when I try to race
To get the hell out
Of this frightening space

Monsters, demons and creatures
Implacable things
With hideous features
Filthy talons, batlike wings
Rancid breath,
Spittle that stings

They're after me, I don't know why
I just know they don't give in
Without one hell of a try
What did I do? What was my sin?
This is obviously hell
I scream, but can't hear my own cry

I try so hard, I run like the wind
Yet my limbs don't move
They don't even bend
How do I leave this horrid place?
Get me out of this fucking space!

Eventually, after seems like forever
My mouth opens and the sweat it pours
I scream and I scream
Trying to get out the doors

Night terrors I'm told
I've had them my whole life
Since just 2 years old
It's more then forty years later
Why, still, so much strife?

I don't want to close my eyes
I don't want to sleep
It's too freaken scarey
I go down way too deep

Darkness comes yet I'm wide awake
The time, the hour,
Matters not, not even for my own sake!

Dori Wheeler 07may09