COMFORT AND JOY
{By Dori Wheeler  30aug09}

Lonliness grips my essense like a steel trap
Living alone has advantages
Being lonely is something I'd like to scrap

I suffer from depression, I am more then just sad
My heart aches from demons of the past
Things I've been working on, but they run deep and bad

People don't understand, depression is like an abyss
A giant black hole that sucks you in
I try to get a foot hold, but seem to always miss

I suffer from chronic pain, the kind that one can't stand
It's a vicious cycle really
Pain causes sadness, sadness causes pain, such a demand

Days I can't get out of bed, it's my safety net
Tears flow easily,  like a fast running stream
I've become a hermit, people will just upset

My heart feels like it has been ripped out
So few really understand
Their ignorance is so frustrating, it makes me want to shout

I hear well intentioned advice
"Get out of the house", "Make new friends"
I'm sorry this won't suffice

Finally I got myself a kitten, so tiny and cute
She's become comfort and joy
In a place where happiness is distute

Gemini is her name and love is her game
She asks for so little, and gives an abundance
My life hasn't been quite the same

I can tell her anything at all without feeling like a nut
She senses my mood and adjusts accordingly
Trying very hard to get me out of my rut

She's as funny as can be
I can't leave the room
Without her chasing after me

Gemini will let me cry
She will get as close as possilbe
Lending her comfort to my soul until my tears finally dry

She is always there for me
Even at the worst of my anxiety attacks
Loving me for me, calming me down to set myself free

So very few have given me reason to trust
Ever since I can remember
I've felt like tossed away bread crust

The sadness and anxiety have their talons out still
Attacking me at any turn
Gemini will do most anything, trying to get a smile

Something so soothing as the sound of purr
She is an amazing, beautiful wonder
I don't know where I would be, if not for her!