"YOU CAN'T STEAL TIME"
{By Dori Wheeler  02sept09}

Too much pain
It hurts so bad
I'm feeling insane

Left all alone
That fateful day
Surely, someone should have known

My  mom came with the news
I collapsed to the floor
She obviously didn't know what to do

He was not sick
Retired for just two weeks
His heart just wouldn't tick

A very highly decorated officer of the law
For more then forty five years
He in his green uniform, is what I mostly saw

So proud to be his daughter, and he my dad
The day he took his last  breath
I was a mess, feeling oh so bad

I am grateful for one large thing
I had a premonition and new his time was short
I was able to spend more time, it was all that I could bring

Now I'm having the same feeling about my mom
A woman that has hurt me so much
Hurt or not, she's my mom so I try to keep it calm

She is the family glue
The matriarch, the wise woman we seek out
When we don't know what to do

I already feel so alone at this time
Dad always said he'd be there for me
Just had to drop a dime

I've been told to get over it
I've had time enough to grieve
But, I am not done grieving, and don't give a shit

I talk to Dad all the time
Whether he can hear me or not
Even if he can't, what is the crime?

I am so very sad today
The tears are rolling down like fresh rain off a tree
I always felt he was invincible, I don't know what to say

You see, this man, was more then my dad
I am so proud of him, he's my hero, too
Nobody likes it, well that's too bad

My heart is a flutter, not knowing how to feel
Dad is gone and Mom is not well
Time is something that one can not steal

My step-mom has control of the entire show
My dad was born in and died in the very same house
Now that we can't go there, I wish the house would blow

I do not look forward to being an orphan kid
I may be an adult, but will always be his little girl
We had a special bond that nobody else did

If only my step-mother wasn't so cold
She inherited everything to do as she please
If I was a gambler, this hand I would fold

All the words that I write will never bring him back
It's just a good release getting it all out
Somehow I feel closer to him, sharp as a tack

I commend all of my  myspace friends
They are there in my family's stead
I don't know if this sadness ever really ends