Actuality

So I sit down to write
all that has came to light
Still find it hard to justify
who what where when why

Doesn't matter now though
for the things I've come to know
That has made life what it is today
with nothing really even left to say

I wish I could say I gave it my best
but that self omission, has been laid to rest
Wish I could take it all away
start over from scratch the night we hit the hay

Knowing now what I didn't know then
Hell I should have taken you way back when
But I know now that I was stupid
all it took was a little arrow via cupid

All these emotions keep on piling
as the gap between us keeps on widening
I've already missed so much, nothings left to hear
no more I love you's ever to be whispered in my ear
 
So I could forever wish and want
but shall this pain and torture forever haunt
The person which you now can't even see
The one, the only, the real me

So after all we've been through
always be just me, just you
Now that I know the never word you used, is true
Cause I've tried countless times, and now I turn blue