Realism

I had this all planned out
yet now can't find the words
And as new days dawn
others are laid to rest
I finally come to realize
I myself have been
My very worst enemy

Tis no one's fault but my own
nobody to blame but the man in the mirror
Should have seen it coming
instead of getting hit
Straight in the back
and way below the belt

Sucks coming to terms
with the useful little fact
My very best feature
is also, whether I like it or not
The greatest flaw in my design

I hold on to long
far passed to late
To whatever is
and how I wanted it to be
Right then and there
Never tomorrow
Just living for now

Then it comes time
To be taken away
As it always does, and that I swear
I come to realize that
I could have been
should have been
So much better off
then I am right now

But I never opened my eyes
to see what was underneath my nose
I was given the chance
to have what I want now
yet I gave it up so easily
way back when and then

It all ends up being
I'm the complete opposite
of how it's supposed to be done
I'm an oxymoron
wrapped in irony
No matter what happens
I'll never feel as if
I won this game of life

I want what I can't have
and thrive on the struggle
That goes along with it
Stride for stride
Side by side
Day in, day out
Over and over again
Over and over again

Well the time has come
that I realize I was wrong
As it always has been atleast
And I never really knew
the person you are way down deep

Just saw the surface
and fell head over heels
Down the endless brown pools
that be your eyes

Now I'm putting you
high upon the shelf
Right among the rest
Those of whom I tried
so hard to impress
Yet got thrown away
for not being the best

Reality has once again
run rampid through the streets
And it has left me standing here
helpless and alone
once again
like you did way back when
As I watch you
walk away, never to return

This time however
It has happened
For the very last time
As I've come to realize
that this is my realism