So much has happened in just a year

Forever hold the memories so very dear

No matter whether you’re near or far

Please hold onto my feelings as if in a jar

Remember you shall always be the love of my life

Regret not asking everyday, for you to be my wife

Then the little girls I see so much in memory

Wouldn’t just be a part of our history

It would have made me so happy and proud

To scream and shout so very, very loud

I’ve finally found the reason I’m alive

They’re at home, waiting for me to arrive

At least I tried to make it right

Day in day out, night by night

Yet we lost ourselves in the mix

Pieces that we may never truly fix

These feelings shall always remain to be

With dreams so real as if all of you, I do indeed see

Cannot blame you though

For in the end, we both went so very low

Truth be told, our time has come and past

Doesn’t matter if I ended up in last

This Christmas I write by my own accord

For I have even taken up talking to the Lord

To help ensure for heaven’s sake

I will not make another mistake

He shall give me the strength

To be there for you no matter the length

I love you all for now and forever, just so you know

My honor to you I do bestow

Merry Christmas to you, baby

I wish you and yours the very best milady

Now its time I face reality

Stop wallowing in self-pity

Yes, everything shall always hurt for eternity

But we together, made it this way with certainty

Now until I’m worthy of being amidst your grace’s

Or until you believe it is okay for me to see their adorable faces

I have a favor to ask, for if you really ever cared for me so

Please help me help myself, to let you go