Why do I love her
what us is there?
Why do I feel
so very helpless?

You're interesting, full of life
And always plan a step ahead

Why couldn't she
feel the same way?
Why can't I
receive the same?

Beauty with endless brown pools
that i couldn't help but sink into

I've given it my all
and still got screwed
No matter what I do
I can't accomplish anything worthwhile

Lively and energetic
the perfect mix of maturity

A taste of what
I can never have again
The sight of one
way to good for me

The perfect amount of everything
that once teased and pleased

The depression thats rising
when I lose over and over again
Never ending is what
I have to look foreward to

Goddess in her own way
and I couldn't help but stare

Why is everything
so very fucked?
Why couldn't I
convince her otherwise?

Tell me what I can do
to again, deserve one such as you

I felt weak and began to shudder
every time her eyes met mine
I now cower and cry
as I'm cast away

Silky smooth
with the bite of a tiger
Rough and tough
with the touch of an angel

A perfect mixture
of all the right essentials
Our embrace was electric
and now our departure, is my hell

I care so much now
That I cared too little then
I try to let her do as she pleases
so her happiness I do not disturb

Lonely and confused
I'm running far away into my mind
Where my secrets are locked
and death seems as if a haven

I have considered
devising a plan
One that will take me
where no one else can follow

A gleaming blade
a twitch of the wrist
No more self torture
no more endless pain

The end is near
as a smile forms at my lips
If there's no more me
there's no more you

Beauty, love, and then pain
Make up you, while making me deceased