Healing

There are so many things in this world,
That evoke fear within my heart.
Watching my children suffer, growing old, being alone,
Those are just a few just to start.

But the crushing blow to my psyche,
Is to have life growing within.
The very thought terrifies me.
I couldn't handle my body failing again.

I almost didn't survive before.
It near destroyed my mind.
I don't think my heart fully healed,
Losing that precious baby of mine.

But now I'm faced with new options.
New possibilities abound.
Could I conquer my fear to let him hold dear,
A precious baby in his arms.

Fatherhood was stolen from him.
Evil people corrupted his fate.
They denied him and his the joy of being together.
Years stretch out ahead before a relief of that state.

I can't replace what he lost.
I can't get back what was his.
But I could give him something,
And see my own heart filled again.

When God chose my soul,
He made me a mother to my brim.
Could I battle my own fears,
To try once again?

He says if it happens it happens,
And if it does it was meant to be.
But to see him hold our baby in his arms,
That would bring joy to me.