• Loss


    Looking back into the past,
    it somehow simpler seems,
    to see that it was always me,
    killing all my dreams.

    Believing that I was unloved,
    unlovable I screamed.
    Amputating hearts desires,
    from love myself did wean.

    Peering now down deep abyss,
    I thought I had denied.
    Emptiness much worse than pain,
    the abyss that lives inside

    Survival is the ugly word,
    defining all my pride.
    Escaping into fairy tales,
    to hide and hide and hide

    Who is Me beneath my face?
    Your bonny, blushing bride?
    I chose the wrong path long ago.
    The day we wed I died.

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    Rhymer commented on Bride


    Excellent piece and if I loved the last stanza of realization. 10 from me. Rhymer

    Shadow70 commented on Bride


    What a great piece. I am so glad that I found your work on here. I can't wait to read them all...Excellent.

    SpiritSong commented on Bride


    wow, I agree with JCKasper...powerful, moving, and painful, not understanding that we all indeed have a plan and purpose for each our lives to help others and find a need to fill,can lead us into looking into ourselves and picking ourselves and often other apart...finding another in desperate need to help brings us out of ourselves and we soon find ourselves joyful and alive again...great and honest write...very vivid and revealing, and many great lines like..escaping into fairy-tales to hide and hide and we have all been there a?... thank you for sharing it...strong piece...

    devaamido commented on Bride


    This is simply one of the inevitable outcomes of monogamous relationships, isn't it? How can you live with any other person without suppressing parts of yourself that your partner finds objectionable? That's just common courtesy! No sense feeling guilty about it, it just means monogamy has that kind of downside, no matter what its merits might be.

    spbsdude commented on Bride


    I have felt the same about both of my marriages. It seems a part of me died in each one, and it only lives on in my writing when I can say how I really feel. Only I don't let my second wife read most of it, she simply would not understand. Nor would she appreciate. "The day we wed I died". I don't know how to tell you that is how I felt both times. A part of me is still dead. Thanks for shaing a part of yourself so beautifully.

    Poetry comes nearer to vital truth than history.

    Plato (BC 427-BC 347) Greek philosopher.

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