addiction wont let me sleep
i cant cry i only weep
and the creep that follows
the pills i swallow
cant seem to banish
all of my fears that lie awake
and languish
my hits come faster
and my inhales hit me deeper
running on the heels
of shortened time
fucked up
in the midst of my prime
my devotion
my crime
this young boy in the mirror of history
destined to never repeat
or remember fully
the heart that beats
my body
my heat
it quickens
it slows
but i will never know
my destiny
my questions remain
unanswered mysteries
and the hit that takes me
fools and protects
the morning wakes me
so i can shoot and neglect
while i search for you
the love in my mind
my saviour
my angel
my holy halo

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SEVEN commented on Halo


This addiction thingy is a total bummer I somehow know the feeling...It totally had control of me but it wasnt about drugs it was much worse which I refuse to commey on it but I saw myself somewhat in this piece....good write....kudos



thanks sev...check out the newer ones though...halo is probably six years old

Desmotti commented on Halo


The downs are everywhere..and the chains hold our heads for us even if it is submerged in toxin. the Halo is a primordial gift from the light within, or above...though we are all from above in the beginning, and eventually. Sadness of the wastes hit home with this one...I puddle hopped for many year through miseries mindfields...break geppetos hold and be your own puppet master...if master ye be...then let this be a salud to recognition of liberation.

kittman101 commented on Halo


This one seems to depict a time of taking druges and maybe hoping not to wake up, yet each morning you did. and each time you thanksed god for giving you a new day of life

In science one tries to tell people, in such a way as to be understood by everyone, something that no one ever knew before. But in poetry, it's the exact opposite.

Franz Kafka (1883-1924) Czech writer.

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