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    On my own again I sit and think,
    Thinking of you still.
    Surrounded by people I still feel alone,
    And I suspect I always will.

    You changed me completely so long ago,
    Something you'll never know -
    To you I'm still lively and oh so free,
    Drifting like falling snow.

    I hate this thing I have become,
    A face with a lying smile.
    I just want to feel loved again,
    If only for a while.

    Everyone around seems so in love,
    My envy glares from smiling eyes -
    I long to feel how I did with you,
    Despite all your constant lies.

    Today my smile has become a lie,
    As I lock emotions away.
    Drinking until my pain is numb,
    Until the following day.

    Surrounding myself with friends
    Still makes me feel this way -
    Each time I'm given a ray of hope,
    I can't bring myself to stay.

    On my own again I try to cry,
    To force some feeling in my heart.
    I long for love, I long for peace -
    I just want my life to restart.

    Copyright © Catriona Elizabeth Mowat 2009

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