“Night Dreaming All Day Long”       
(or a vampire with insomnia)



Night dreaming all day long
I walk bright city blocks
and sun mottled mountain trails

amid hopeless hope built upon long ago daytime's
bright castles of life flowing freely through my humanity
humility was me, hungering for love,

looking for light,
longing for bright,  pure freedom
peacefully free, so free a creation
of God

composing with nature
joining heart to soul, brain to veins
sadly, so tragic, are the night dreams

dreamt in the day 
beginning every dawn
living inside until the sun is gone

until I join the other nocturnal cruel ones
nights when I am truly, magically free
gifted with what others think they want to be
if they knew, if they really truly knew
what type of being I am
they would flee,
flee far away from me
And those of my ilk

some are reduced to feasting on rats, bats, and snakes
others take advantage of whatever they can take

unawareness is doom
you could be sleeping it off
or urinating in the gloom
of false light
light that I am able to  manage,

to my bloody advantage,

Yet!!  Although I am driven,

without mercy to anyone

although I loved living
I was cursed beyond belief,
far more cursed than almost anyone,
self hatred is not unknown to me,

Yet!! At times like this,
I feel the most sensual I can ever be,
at odd moments of hunger fulfilled
I daydream at night
of how beautiful my life had been to me

it is said that nighttime

is the right time to be with the one you love

I have no love but blood
to me  nighttime is simply experienced as bite time.
so experienced, so many nights to loathe. 

at this one thing I am very good

Night dreams are not in the cards for me
I am like so many others
hoping to live their dreams out
but unlike these others,

I am unable to live anything out
hard to do for the undead.
hard to feed what must be fed
too hard for me to feel anything.

© Sam Hyde
     06-29-09