Construct, Destruct

Building up my walls as defense
this heart now wrecked of innocence
these veins are getting tense
ready to self destruct, and start over again

Breaking down the walls I just built
these dreams I made, I've now killed
I can feel a sense of guilt
construct, destruct..... where do I begin

I'm starting to see the oceans aren't as deep
as deep as I thought they'd be
I'm swimming in a sea of uncertainty
is this battle over, I think I've seen the end

Growing dim, growing dark as coal
I'm swallowed by this black hole
it slowly consumes my soul
it's about time I give in

Holding on, my hands are slipping
the waves they thow me, I am gripping
onto this ship that keeps on drifting
this battle it's either lose or win

I think I'm going down with the ship
I need some hands to give me a lift
I'm stuck in this dark rift
the salt it tickles my chin

Will there be any strong enough to live?
this ocean takes all of what I give
the waves they pierce like a shiv
I'll save as many men

as many as I can, before we go down
lookin' for land is there any around
don't turn back, you'll be sure to drown
I'll record our lives with this pen

just in case we are never found
I'll log our names in this journal now
hoping to be homeward bound
will this journey end?