A selfish moment of survival

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    A selfish moment of survival
    Though I know you are strong
    And I know you stand tall
    All I see in the boy
    Who stood all alone,
    Now the years have flown by
    But you distance yourself,
    I had thought you reborn
    I had thought you healed up
    But the scars of your past
    And the pain in your heart
    Just dug itself deeper
    An unending pit,
    You could live again
    You could stand by my side
    You could feel those emotions
    You think that he took,
    But you don't want to,
    Feel you have nothing left
    And the fight in your body
    For the mind that I love
    Is losing it's strength
    With close of each day,
    I wish I could take your hand
    Wish I could heal your soul
    But every time I come near
    You just throw me away,
    With every shove I tried a little harder
    But now I am weak,
    Now I can't stay,
    Could all of your pushing
    Make's it deadly to stay
    Your breaking in two 
    And I can't save you
    All my emotions laid out
    For your cold eyes to see
    The love you felt for me
    Now for you a distant memory
    I wish I could stay
    I wish I could help
    But my wishes mean nothing
    When, day after day
    You kill me again and again,
    I can't be with you
    Lest I become a manifestation
    Of the pain you wield,
    I cannot stay 
    I cannot help 
    Because, slowly, I am falling
    Into your pit of despair,
    This one selfish moment
    I must take for myself
    This last goodbye is all I can spare
    Though I know you are strong
    And I know you stand tall
    All I see in the boy
    Who stood all alone,
    Now the years have flown by
    But you distance yourself,
    I had thought you reborn
    I had thought you healed up
    But the scars of your past
    And the pain in your heart
    Just dug itself deeper
    An unending pit,

    You could live again
    You could stand by my side
    You could feel those emotions
    You think that he took,
    But you don't want to,
    Feel you have nothing left
    And the fight in your body
    For the mind that I love
    Is losing it's strength
    With the close of each day,

    I wish I could take your hand
    Wish I could heal your soul
    But every time I come near
    You just throw me away,
    With every shove that you made
    I tried a little harder
    But now I am weak,
    Now I can't stay,
    Cos all of your pushing
    Make's it deadly to stay
    Your breaking in two 
    And I can't save you

    All my emotions laid out
    For your cold eyes to see
    The love you felt for me
    Now for you a distant memory

    I wish I could stay
    I wish I could help
    But my wishes mean nothing
    When, day after day
    You kill me again and again,
    I can't be with you
    Lest I become a manifestation
    Of the pain you wield,
    I cannot stay 
    I cannot help 
    Because, slowly, I am falling
    Into your pit of despair,
    This one selfish moment
    I take for myself
    This last goodbye is all I can spare

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