Again I find myself here
Poised to jump,
Nothing to catch me
No-one to save me
This time it’s real
This time I will not stop
My balance has gone
So where’s the gust of wind?
There, I see it
Flying in the distance
Drawing ever closer
Soon it shall find its mark
Me,
Maybe then they’ll understand
Exactly what they did to me,
Feel some regret
Some anger
Maybe even pity.
I don’t want pity
I don’t want shame
I want to prove my point
To end my cause
There’s nothing left for me
In this festering world
No-one worth living for
And blood’s not strong enough
Now he’s old enough
Big enough
To understand my pain
At least I hope
But that does not matter anymore
Nothing does
If they think I can still be hurt
Then they are wrong
If they believe their strength
Let them
Soon I shall show them my strength
Let them feel fear
Cower beneath my memory,
Screwing in dark corners
Lest I spy upon them
Breathing in my pain
Twisting there hidden shame
Or so they’ll think
But me
My heart’s already lost
He gone now though
He won’t be coming back
We’ve kissed our last
This I should recall
But I still cry
For both
In my confusion
I consummated our passion
With another
Oh who do I think of with my last breath?
Whose name do I call?
As I say goodbye
Whose forgiveness do I ask?
As I die