Trembling Faith

I find myself in fear tonight
And I wonder at my place
In the greater scheme of God
I have not followed the narrow path
And I will not find the narrow gate
I have walked with other men
And forgotten the scriptures
I was taught so long ago

Praying a prayer and asking for salvation
Will not guarantee a angel soul,
I wish I was not so weak
And filled with petty joys,
I wonder how many false Gods
I have laid my mind to,

I used to have so much faith
Not only in His word
But in my way of being,
I used to see an apple tree
And see only golden fruit
Sweet and good to eat
But now that same tree
Is bound in briers
And the fruit drops, rotten,
To scarred and deadened roots,

I see now how my faith is broken
I don't suppose he knows me
Not like I wished to know him
I see him as my Lord
But I have no words
To show how I worship