I have to believe that one-day things will change
I have to believe that I can survive until they do
How much longer can I still believe?
What makes your choice so hard?

I see your face
I see you lips move
But hear no sound
Feel no touch

What closes the mind?
I see the past as clear as day
I live the past night after night
How did you survive?

But then I saw you again
And everything changed
I said the words of forgiveness
My heart was silent

It was given freely to free your mind
Ease your pain
But you wanted more than I could give
You desired absolution

She died in hatred
Her end cursed your name
My body trembled with her passing
Her lips parted to silence

You wronged her
Beat her black and blue
Killed her
But she still loved you

What broke us down?
What tore the walls of peace?
Was it the trips to town?
The outdone lease

All I ever wanted was time
Not money, material goods
But time moves on in life
I try to stay behind

Shadows turn to figures
Night after night
Dreams tormented by visions
Make for strange sights

I will wonder at your actions
Till all else is gone
I will wonder at your actions
With my dying breath

I have cried a thousand tears
Lived so many years
I would live a thousand more to understand
Die tomorrow to know

That was the most you wronged me
I cannot forgive that
You left, died
Leaving no words to ease the pain

I asked so many times
I feel the pain of death
Everyday I mourn
I need to live

My heart cannot rest till I know the truth
I need this release
You have condemned me to live in the past
I need to move on

My heart is empty
Bled dry
There is nothing left
I have no future

Why did you do this?
I wish to move on
I want it so bad
But it is a dream

All those I trusted have long gone
Friends are trivial
They fill the days
Why?

I live in my head
There anything is possible
There I can imaging the why’s and how’s
But they’re not real

Co’s it’s nobodies wish