Goodbye Mother, goodbye Father
It is time to bid you farewell
Do you know how hard this is?
Have you ever felt this deep kind of pain?
Mother you did not live to see your father fall
Father you stood by two graves
You wept for parents long gone
As I weep for you.
I have wanted to harden my heart
Cut out reality so as to pave my future
How could this dream last?
A future with no real past is nothing
Making me nothing
Mother you saw your own grave
You tried to ready me
For this harsh world
But I would not listen
Please accept my apologies
Else I will fade away and die.
Goodbye now and forever
These are the words that I would like to say to your stone
I have put off my future for too long
Now I must face it,
Head on.
I have visited your grave once
Once in five long years
I have made excuse that I hated the company
While this is true I was only lying.
Please forgive me now
Now that I have nothing
I will come and that will be it
That will be when I move on
Then I won’t care for forgiveness
Then I won’t care for love
Then I will be lost
With no shepherd to find me
I shall fall
But not without leaving you
I won’t drag you to the bottom
I will come soon
When I have courage enough
To lose it all again, forever

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Ten years
And I have yet to come
Not set foot
In that place
Father, I have felt you
Flying free across the wind
Cutting deep into me
Mother, I miss you
More than you could ever know
I fear if we were to meet again
I fear what you would say
How you would scorn me so
Shamed at what I have become
But you left me
After all my promises
You were still taken
My soul grazed yours
In those final moment
You reached out to say goodbye
I reached out to hold on
Maybe if I’d stayed
So would you
Maybe if I’d been a better child
You would still love me
You must hate me now
Everything you taught me
Everything dream you held
Has been shattered by me
I am nothing but a shadow
Of some former hope
True in form
Lost in spirit